I will take you back a couple of weeks.
Life needs to slow down, sometimes we just need to cease.
Being told to rest after blood tests and many visits to the doctors, with no results about why I was fatigued and weak.
The word REST is not in my vocabulary.
The Specialist said I will probably never know what caused my illness. Maybe a virus?
I don’t like to talk about being ill. I believe it just feeds the negative but I have not had the strength to blog, sketch or even read books. That loss of energy and inspiration is nothing short of dismal, when all you can do is NOTHING.
My busy life of art, replaced with nothing but time and looking out the window.
Sitting there day after day, watching the beautiful Rosella’s come and go and watching my husband do all the work. You would think I could relax and enjoy the break. I found it so frustrating to do nothing.
It gave me time to think, it gave me time to worry.
Six months gone and I am nowhere near finished any of my projects. AGAIN you say. But after being unwell I had to take a new approach.
At the moment I’m happy just to be able to do my chores. I’m smiling as I put the washing on the line or making my kids a Vegemite sandwich for school.
I’m laughing with my daughter as we sit through a Harry potter Marathon (her suggestion to help me rest).
Happy being able to give a tasty dinner for my tired husband. He has been up every day working at 5am chasing cows and then coming home to run the house.
I’m chuffed to sit with my son and watch him win every race on Mario Cart.
I never appreciated being able.
And now that I have my strength back I give thanks for a wonderful supportive family. I have even more admiration for those who go through their day unable to do the little things we all take for granted.
I will leave you with a few images of my Sunday picnic at Brogo Dam. Soak up life people and appreciate the most basic of human needs.
To sit and do nothing if only for a while.
Appreciate the sun, the moon and the stars above but most of all appreciate you are still here and every day is a gift.