Behind Closed Doors

xmas swallows (copy)

Art by Kath Unsworth

Winter is reluctant to leave. The days are warming up, yet I sit here shivering. I am eager to write but impatient for the kettle to boil. I Wrap my frozen arthritic fingers around a warm cup of tea and watch the steam rise. Looking out the kitchen window there is blue sky. The mountain in the distance wrapped in fog. Sunlight creeps through, the promise of a warm spring day. A pair of persistent swallows, tweet the best kind of twitter I know. They build their nest up high in the rafters and I take some photo’s.

I feel blessed in these minuscule moments. The swallows, a gift for this week. Sometimes I wonder if that is all that drives me to create. The beauty of nature sings to me. It is not for money, nor fame that I do this. There is something which flows through me. I rarely plan my art. (unprofessional I know).

Until I joined the Tribe/Writers and started blogging, I worked behind closed doors. Not wanting to share my dreams with anybody, especially not in my community. I never told anyone about my picture book ideas or my art either.

My writing group meets once a month and the topic for this month was of course Behind closed doors. I sit and think about all the creative people I have met within the Tribe/writers and the online blogging community. I wonder where there inspiration springs from. I want you to know that I find it hard some days to create anything worth sharing.

Some of you make it look easy, some of you have stopped writing and creating and I miss you. Some are content to keep plodding along like me, learning as they write. For those of you who have stopped writing, remember there is only one you. One unique voice with something to say. Don’t give up on your dreams, just keep believing in your path. It’s now or never. There is no right time, there is only today. Somewhere in this world someone needs to hear what you have to say, your art and your words matter.

Most of you live in far off lands. Thanks to all your positive feedback my art found its way through the door and out the other side. Something I never planned at the start of this year. My writing has taken a few sideways steps. I admit the writing still has a long way to go.

I remember a quote from Stephen King’s book On Writing.

“Write with the door closed, rewrite with the door open.”

I love this quote.

What is the point of creating anything if you are afraid to share it. How will it and you grow, if you keep your craft or passions hidden?

The swallows are making a racket. Yesterday their nest fell from the rafters, dollops of mud splattered all over the deck. I can only imagine they are arguing about where the nest should go now? (first timers). I know one thing, they will never give up and I am in awe of their drive to finish.

Each morning they chirp away sitting on my Xmas lights. The nest looks stronger today and I cannot wait to see those little babies.

I hope where ever you are, you are opening those doors and sharing your dreams with the world. Like the swallows, never give up and remember hard work pays off in the end. I will try to work like these birds, building the solid foundations for my dreams, piece by piece from the ground up. I will reach high and touch the stars, but if I don’t make it, at least I will know what it feels like to try.

And if I have not inspired you today I am still feeling good because by sharing my work I have inspired one creative soul, my daughter. She came to me after working behind closed doors in her favourite spot (the caravan) and shared her drawing with me.

willows birds (copy)

Art by Willow Unsworth

Have a wonderful creative day and share what ever you are working on.

About Minuscule Moments

Everybody has a DREAM. Today is the first day of the rest of my writing life. Its a lonely world out there when you are learning the craft. This year, as the same as last year, I want to finish my first children's picture book. I have learn't many wonderful lessons on this journey. You are never too old to learn.
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82 Responses to Behind Closed Doors

  1. Alisa Belzil says:

    Wow, more talent in the family! It comes as no surprise that she has her own unique style like her mother. Well done both of you. I’m waking up at 4am today wondering if I’ll have time to paint, and I have no ideas or plans myself. Your writing inspires me to make the time and just create in the moment. Wonderful post, and lovely birds Kath. Thank you for sharing your world!

    • Hey Alisa I know that feeling that burn to create, we need to listen to it when it comes. My daughter did not like her outline of this when she brought it to me. I was amazed and told her art is never easy, sometimes we have to do something over. I told her to go experiment with pens and pencils and was smiling when she returned with this. I never dreamed I would have a child who enjoyed sketching as much as I do. I hope you get that chance today to live in that creative moment.

  2. Kath, this a beautiful post, and your drawings are stunning, as isthis one by your gifted daughter.

    My diagnosis propelled me inro poetry and now I think I would feel lost without it. It keeps me feeling alive and in touch with those miniscule moments you talk about. I love your work and so pleased we met. Im a little concerned you havent yet received my book… Xx

  3. Mother and daughter both have unique, beautiful styles that touch the soul. It touches the heart, too, to see the creativity. It is that season when, as your days warm and mine cool, we pass in the seasonal night and share a smile. Were it that the smile came to be then I’m certain we’d sit and talk for awhile. The leaves have begun to change and today the sky graces us with a treasured rain.

  4. diannegray says:

    What an incredibly talented family you have, Kath! You’ve also inspired me today – it’s been far too long since I just sat down behind closed doors and just wrote! I need to do this soon because I feel like I’m losing the passion xxxx

    • Dianne nice to see you. Please do not stop writing I enjoyed your book Wolf Pear so much. You have such a talent with words my friend. I admire you and wish you a nice productive writing day and most of all the one thing I am learning in my editing course. Remember how much fun you have. I can tell you enjoy writing just by reading your novel and I will be back for more, as will many others, so don’t stop.

  5. Letizia says:

    Blogging has given me more confidence in expressing myself creatively in a public forum as well. And I’ve joined some creative groups in my town and seen how encouraging people are. It’s funny how our own fears hold us back.

    I love the warm feeling of a cup of tea on cold hands too. One of life’s lovely moments.

    • Hi Letizia nice to see you here, I agree without this blog I would not have attempted half the things I am doing now. An online community I never knew existed has helped me follow my dreams. I hope to pass it onwards.

  6. Yes, I’m feeling inspired–and more importantly for where I happen to be right now, encouraged. Have been struggling with a lot of doubt and fear lately. I guess it goes with the new territory/change I find myself in (ie empty nest). Thank you for sharing, Kath.
    Your illustrations are lovely!!

    • Its a crazy world Coleen I dream of time and what I could do with it, when the kids fly the coup. But I know I would need time to adjust. Your creative vibes will return because you have much talent my friend. Take your time and it will sort itself out.

  7. Fiona says:

    I thought I would never actually leave a comment here, figuring I would tell you in person but I feel inclined today. You say that others do it easy and you struggle but I read your words and see visions. I comment to Michael on your eloquence every single time I read an entry. You might feel like you struggle but the end result doesn’t show it. Oh and I laughed at your brilliant ‘twitter’ line.

    • Fiona those words mean a lot to me, from someone who struggled with (and still does) punctuation and grammar issues. I often wonder am I on the right track? Can I learn the complex layers of writing a story? I am educating myself on my weakness’s and hope some of it sticks lol. Thank you for reading and yes I thought that twitter line was fun too.

  8. Luanne says:

    Wow, Kath, what an inspiring post! I feel bad about those people who have stopped writing. If it’s because they didn’t enjoy it, that’s one thing, but if they felt it was beyond them, that’s a shame because it just takes that unrelenting plodding along, I am convinced. xo

  9. Like you, my creative writing and journals were done behind closed doors. It took years before I ventured to share them. Kath, I love your inspiring words. I wrote professionally for many years. Yet I often have times when I have to overcome writer’s block. Stephen King’s book, “On Writing,” is in our office library and I have re-read it on a number of occasions. 😉

  10. Somehow I missed that Stephen King quote. It could mean so many things. Love your birds!

  11. Aquileana says:

    Hi Kath,
    “Write with the door close, rewrite with the door open”: What a marvelous quote… So true…
    I love the way you tell us about your creative experiences (writing) and how, by sharing your work, you have inspired another creative soul, your daughter. Beautiful ❤

  12. You know what, you’re daughter definitely has your creative talent, and this is a really beautiful post. There are days when, I have to admit, it is tempting to give up. Take the simple route out. And I even wonder if that’s what I’m doing now. But no. Sometimes we just have to be open to new things. To refocus, or come at it a different way. And I’m really heartened by the fact that your work behind closed doors has opened others. Lovely. I’ll take that away with me today 🙂

  13. Yolanda M. says:

    What a lovely and inspiring post Kat. I say lovely because of your pics – you are so talented! and inspiring because you are a wonderful writer! I love swallows. For some reason they avoid our neighbourhood – I think it is because we are part and parcel of the rainforest and they seem to prefer open spaces. I still struggle with sharing my work so your post resonated with me 🙂

  14. Judy says:

    I love the birds and the Christmas lights!! You do make me want to draw!!

  15. A cup of tea. Watching the swallows. Okay, you are right. I stopped writing. But not for ever. Suitably chastised. Will post something this week. Promise.

  16. I can remember when I did not share what I wrote but only with a very select few who at work would see me writing. I had a wonderful job and position, and with the economic crash, everything went haywire. But there seemed to be a message for me, that i had never really wanted to listen to because The money was good. Our company closed, and I went to work for another one similar to the first. Then they went away, and it seem God was telling me something, but i kept on trying to find a job, then old military injuries began to take their toll. I could not work any longer…one day moving things from our storage unit to our home, a tote fell and the lid came off and my daughter asked what were all those binders, they were years of poetry, never shared, and now what I had refused to listen to was clearly heard, and that was September 2009, i began to gather the poetry together and typed them into some order, and sent 39 manuscripts to the Library of Congress. December 31st of that year I spoke to God in prayer telling him I would finally start sharing with the new year. My first poem submitted was published online by The Editor of American Diversity on January 2nd 2000, Deborah Levine. I came out the closet, and have been sharing since. As time went on I saw where most people who blogged cared more about the number of likes they received. I had a dream, where I saw many who create, not all the times have a message which touches people. It was not the number that was important, it was the spiritual energy in the words. In our spirits we are alive by the grace of the creator…the love he shown in that wonderful act of giving us his spiritual breath. So know when you share it will always be meaningful to someone at that right moment and time. You are gifted, and your words are priceless thanks for visiting mine, and I will always visit yours…because your words are alike a drop of needed rain to a flower…in life we must always continue to blossom and be nourished…and there are many like you who provide that needed nourishment. Hugs and blessings to you and keep moving forward, and let no one or anything turn you around! I love the name of your blog…it intrigues many to visit…but I knew when i read your first sentence there is nothing minuscule at all in the moments spent with you my sister! Have a beautiful week ahead!

    • Wendell thank you I love reading how we come to that point in our lives, where we finally wake up and realise this is our path. You have a gift with poetry and your blog is uplifting too. I try to surround myself with positive thinking and hope it rubs off onto those who need a lift. My mother is the most positive person I know. I am lucky she shared this with her nine children. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and I appreciate it. In the end its not about money or stature is it, its about how we effect other people. My father had a suitcase full of thanks you notes at the end of his life. Something we all aspire too. He created a small ripple of hope whenever he helped out a person in need. Good day to you and thanks.

  17. mrsgillies says:

    I love Willow’s drawing!

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